F*** Chocolate Covered Almond Clusters

Normally, I don't curse. BUT I bought these chocolate covered almond clusters from Trader Joe's last week thinking it would be a great mid-day snack for work. I left them in my office over the weekend and came back today to find them on my desk. It made me a little happy inside. So I had two before my meeting. Then another six afterwards (eight all together). Each cluster had about four almonds in it. I just so happened to look at the container to see the calories.

190 calories in 2 clusters!!!!!!!

I ran (more like jogged) this morning... a mile. I probably burned about 400 calories. It was freezing this morning but I was still glistening. I felt good. Was a bit out of breath.. felt my muscles tightening. It was fantastic! However, my hard fought mile was decimated by two itty bitty bite sized f***in chocolate covered almond clusters. I was sooooo pissed. I don't want to be the chick who checks calories and yadda yadda but low and behold, there I was in Albertson's four hours later looking at calories while I shopped for soup.

Trying to lose weight is a pain. "Dieting" is a chore.. an unfair disadvantage. I want a leveled playing field!!!!! I think every female should be between a size 5-10 until they're 25 and then after that, if they want to maintain they can and if they don't.. well it's their choice. But being "overweight" for most of my life.. that's tough. In high school, I wore a size 14-16 and people (adults and peers- side note: people think adults are so mature. They're not.. they're just grown up children.) made me feel like I was one of the fattest girls in school. I look back and envy that girl. Unfortunately, that girl didn't know she was perfect. So now.. I'm a plump 22 trying to get down to my high school size. I miss that girl.. with her 14-16 hips, and C cup bra size. Don't get me wrong... I like my DDs but they're so overwhelming...

Anyway, back to the clusters. I don't think eating eight will set me back too much. The clusters alone were 760 calories. I did have a pretty healthy breakfast (oatmeal with apples) and for lunch I had a Greek quesadilla (spinach and feta cheese) with a curry potato soup at The Press. I'm hoping that breakfast and lunch were no more than 850 calories. For dinner, I'm making pizza (goat cheese, olives and sauce- it's delicious!). Since I'm making my own pizza, the calories should cut down immensely. Hopefully, when all is said and done my daily intake will be no more than 1800. Those freaking clusters just made me so mad.

How do you enjoy life when bite sized clusters are so bad for you!?!?!?!

And don't say moderation.